| BIG boy bath time |
[Jun. 29th, 2009|12:05 pm] |
 The boys took their first big boy baths last night. They dug it! I think next time I'll make the water a touch deeper so they can reach it better with their hands. Miss Kate you MUST come see them soon!!! Before they are 1 at least. I'd love for you to visit when they're still able to be carried easily. |
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| nothing is easy |
[Jun. 28th, 2009|09:56 pm] |
I think I'd like to write and illustrate a children's book I've been writing out a list of things I'd like to write about and hand wrote some fals starts to toy with style etc I've got some brushing up to do! I'd like to write silly books like one I've got here for the boys but I don't want to bite anyone's style or even the type of book just the way they make me feel really
today we went out with the boys & pup for a walk grocery shopping I made a sweet onion and garlic pizza and a slightly less awesome salad we had a big breakfast I made while he did all the dishes
the boys have been staying up later which is good and bad bad in that they don't fall asleep earlier and leave me alone time to do stuff but good in that they sleep a little later in the morning especially because our morning naps have been shooort I think I'm going to try and get em both to sleep while watching a movie off to watch the man who knew too much with peter lorre |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|09:50 am] |
I've been reading LJ lately but not posting I'm on facebook now but I don't feel the urge to write there much either right now my life is merely living trying to get some sleep enjoying my tattoo work watching Dark Shadows every night with the hub getting slowly back into cooking and wishing we 4 could head outta town just once this summer
to quickly summarize my life I'll present to you my current shopping list: covered diaper pail pooper scooper bee spray spray foam
pretty exciting stuff
my phone died and an awesome client gave me his old one so that's back in order but I lost some cool pics
I'm back to brown hair so I can let it be not really into the maintenence involved in being blond apparently and I think I'll ignore my hair save the bangs and spit curls for a bit see what happens
need to start a drawing but my reference material is downstairs and the hub is at work til noon damn
the beebees didn't give me a nap this morning so I'm vury tired |
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| personalities at 8mo |
[Jun. 18th, 2009|10:06 am] |
I thought it might be nice to mention here that the boys personalities are so very different and note a few things to see if they become life long traits
Edgar is mommy centric and has abandonment issues he loves to eat anything and lots of it we call him kickin chicken because he kicks his rt leg hard and fast and frequently he is stout and sturdily built he's got a good sense of humor and is ticklish almost everyhwere and is still pretty bald/peachfuzzy
Cecil is the quiet thinker so it seems he is a picky eater and is already wanting to drink from a glass he's not so sensitive when I leave the room but if he bonks his head even a little is big with the cries he's a toy stealer and though I've seen Edgar do the same it's not as frequent he seems the problem solver he's more slight than Edgar owing to his lack of a matched appetite and has very red hair and more of it than E
On the whole I think they are both very sweet little fellahs who, so far, play fairly well together but need personal space away from eachother and both become jealous when I attend to the other unless they are fixed in play |
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| sleep? |
[Jun. 18th, 2009|10:01 am] |
The hubby and I have been cosleeping with the boys for months we never intended to cosleep but it happened and now the hub wants to stop I'm all for it if only it didn't mean that I get 1/2 as much sleep as I was getting which is not nearly enough as it is last night we put the boys back in their crib everytime we got them to go back to sleep and then with feeding them alternately as they woke up it was WAY more exhausting than anything else and now the boys aren't wanting a morning nap which is soemthing I count on for my sanity they got us up at 7am and though there have been lots of fits and signs of sleepy nobody will break down and nap I tried but it was tears, fussiness and then play
I have tattoos tonight, fri, sat and sun I tattooed twice tes and then 3hrs yesterday by sunday I'm going to be fried
thank goodness that my neuma parts arrived yesterday now my machine runs like a dream and it's much quieter with much less vibration at least I can enjoy that well ant the actual tattoo sessions I'm just beat |
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| the litany of things |
[Jun. 12th, 2009|08:47 am] |
the boys are now eating rice cereal when I have a chance. this is awesome because it can keep their hunger at bay for quite a bit. last night I tattooed for 3hrs and the boys didn't ask Josh for food at all and I could breastfeed as soon as I came back. Rock
Motor has been sick. it's been a major trial and a lot of money but I loves him so that's that he's my baby and my responsibility yesterday I was supposed to get him to pee in the litterbox in the bathroom by closing him up there but he would not so today he goes back ot the vet to have his urine extracted this is not my favorite option
I'm really sailing on Tony's chest piece and it's looking great but we don't ahve plans beyond that at this point how terrifying!
Jacob's horror sleeve will be coming to a close by the end of the month his family lives here but he's been going to school in dekalb and driving in for work he says that he'll never go to another tattoo artist and is about to move to boston so he plans on getting work every time he comes in to town for family things how sweet hope it's true he's a grrrreat client!
I want to do so much but never seem to have the energy the boys keep me up a LOT and I think it's taking its toll on my brain my word recall is even worse than it already was
right now edgar is trying to eat cecil's head cecil is ignoring him and playing with a box my boys so silly
I'm dreadfully sleepy but get no morning nap because I have to get the cat to the vet this morning tomorrow is another day but today is not yet a wash |
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| being an artist |
[Jun. 7th, 2009|10:05 pm] |
it means different things to people and at different times of their lives right now, for me, it's the work and the work I'd like to do in the future due to time constraints with the twins it's tattooing and occasionally design my inner artist does not need an umbrella, a tutu, a tiara or a cigar at least not today today I am utility plus art maybe tomorrow I'll have time for that something different but I probably won't even care I just want to do and make and be I was never searching so I don't appreciate the search and can be harsh with those on it because since I can remember I did what I do and have been who I am so here I sit with nothing more to say about it but a cat needs medicine my belly needs an artificially sweetened cereal and then my spinning brain needs rest |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 7th, 2009|11:05 am] |
we are having to do a lot of supplementing these days I'm afraid to get back on the motilium cancer risks not approved by the FDA risks something else nagging at the back of my head the boys are getting comfy with food not really comfy but better I'm hoping that the fact that my supply is not the best could be supplanted by some foodstuffs eventually this will be the case ok off to feed them and me before an appt may it all go well |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 3rd, 2009|05:46 pm] |
watching my sons struggle to find their way in their environment is a profound experience for me I feel as though this struggle never ends from birth I once asked my mom, "how did you learn to do everything?" it seemed as though she was prepared for any situation even when she was encountering something she'd never done before she said that she learns as she goes and a person never knows how to do everything everyone has to feel stupid or confused or uncertain sometimes but then you know how to do it next time and for the most part things are designed for most folks to accomplish with an average skill set
Cecil is trying to figure out the deal with the chair leg and body he is perplexed that he cannot move it and returns to his jungle playset for a while where the set of rules and restrictions is familiar only to return again and again one day it will be a chair to him I try to imagine a world of shapes, colors and textures without definition but am gridlocked in my perception with words, values and meanings for all the objects which surround me |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 3rd, 2009|11:18 am] |
the boys are getting active it's awesome but now we've gotta get a beebee fence they can't even crawl but they can roll across the whole room in minutes I need to get more physically active I've given up on exercise and I can tell it's rotting my brain not feeling very creative outside of tattooing not having much energy
how weird is it that you have to expend a lot of energy to get energy but so it is |
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| unproductive |
[May. 31st, 2009|08:04 pm] |
Since having the kids I've been super busy go figure but I've been able to get artwork done for tattoo clients and when I was breastfeeding for longer when they were tinier I was embroidering a LOT but now that there is more time between feedings it seems as though I can't get anything done.
NO embroidery projects no paintings no drawings unless it's for a client and I HAVE to get it done nothing not even sewing projects I guess I feel like I've got to have an eye on them constantly now that they can roll across the room into danger and I guess because of this my mind is foggy for projects perhaps my brain is doing this to protect me because I can't accomplish much it is saving me from the agony of trying
there's a ton to say about Motor but I'm just happy to have him home for now and hoping things will go well
it's been a long few weeks for many reasons I need to get up on a project and do it |
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| motor boat |
[May. 28th, 2009|03:00 pm] |
Motor is going in to the vet today at 4:30 I'm very nervous about the appt because he's lost a lot of weight I know he's depressed and I've been trying to give him extra snuggles but he can't sleep inthe bed with us so his main source of snuggles is lost and I know it upsets him greatly I've been trying tuna to cheer him up and he seems to like it and today we played with a peice of balled up paper I think I'm going to make a chase the string toy and see if I can't get him going but in general it is very sad and I think whatever the vet says will make me cry and I hate that and I hate that Motor is 14yrs old and sooooo skinny now he's the best cat in the world and was my #1 snuggler until we brought the boys home but with cosleeping I can't trust that he won't try to sleep on a boy because he walks over them casually when they play on the floor and I had to teach him not to walk ON the boys we're hoping to move the boys to cribs in the next month hopefully that will enable us to open the bedroom door again and Motor snuggles will resume it's such a hard decision to keep him out off to make him a string toy and see if he wants to play and then offer tuna again |
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[May. 28th, 2009|02:27 pm] |
I'll be getting my car fixed this Monday central air in my living space the 8th and more clients are calling/e-mailing thank you universe now I just need to draw a graffiti flower when I'm not entirely sure what that means because the flower type needs to be kept in tact and recognizable but it needs also to be stylized I've got ideas they just need to come together wish my hub wasn't sick I feel so bad for him and can only give him food and help to snuggle would involve bringing the boys into it and they're exhausting to him right now off to draw love drawing would like to paint but that's not for a bit perhaps a long bit |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 28th, 2009|07:47 am] |
sssssssssssoooooooooooooooooooooo ttttiiiirrrrreeeeeeeeedddddd Cecil decided that it was up and at em time at 5:15am I disagreed but lost in a 2 to 1 vote now I eagerly await nap time and don't know exactly when it will strike I said yesterday that I need more clients and now I've got 3 e-mails about work thank you universe for listening when I'm sure there are more important voices out there in need crying follows playtime perhaps a nap approacheth! |
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| battlestations |
[May. 24th, 2009|10:40 am] |
both the boys are in their battlestations that's what we call these chair/toyfest things I'm sure there's a formal name but I don't know it
designed and am going to order 1" buttons for the shop to give out for free had to resist the urge to make one of them hot pink still resisting but don't know why
I've got tattoos sun,mon,tues,wed that's awesome possibly fri as well
we need to have a huge sale to empty out the thrift store I want the building to be clear of all this rubble it's everywhere
I've also been thinking heavily about becoming a surrogate so that I can make enough money to pay off the building I don't think I'd make all of it but with other savings we could do it in a couple years as opposed to 7-10 I liked being pregnant there was a ton of suck but in general I dug it I would be doing it for the boys so they always have a place no matter what happens in our lives financially but it's a big thing I don't take lightly so I'm still thinking
the hubby is sick he had a dreadful fever last night got what I had but no sore throat yet the painkillers seemed to reduce the fever so I've let him sleep all morning and I'm gonna get him up for food in 10min because he's gotta watch the boys while I tattoo this afternoon I had to watch the boys alone 2 nights in a row while very ill so he could go to band practice so I don't feel too horrible about having him watch them we all have to buck up sometimes
wish I had a clue what to do with my hair it's super short right now so there's nothing TO do but I don't feel cute at all it happens the lack of sleep and general unconcern for my appearance also makes me feel not so hot oh well I have better things to do than dwell
hubby wake up time! I'm hungry and need a shower so I best get to it...
PS for all the new star trek haters out there you have a rather narrow view of time if this movie really kills the rest of the other movies for you |
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| sick & sign |
[May. 20th, 2009|10:40 am] |
I've been very sick getting better now on antibiotics and they gave me something to avoid thrush had a 103 fever that sucks bigtime chilled to the bone shivering in a boiling shower afraid to turn the water off but it's getting better slowly wish it were faster had to cancel 3 tattoo appts so far hoping to get to keep my evening tomorrow we'll see
today I'm taking care of the babes the Madre is coming over and we're going to give everyone baths I think I'm going to invest in a sign language dictionary today the boys know milk now and I'm working on change, mother, father, play and up it's so exciting to be able to communicate clearly like this they can't sign anything yet they're still too floppy and sillybodied but knowing the signs and calming down or getting excited when I sign milk is perfect for now BOY I miseed playing with them and holding them when I was REALLY dog sick |
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| changing everything |
[May. 6th, 2009|09:16 am] |
Dad and I put a new floor and trim in my tattoo room in a matter of hours yesterday morning I skipped my nap with the boys and am still feeling it well they also got us up at 6am so that doesn't help it made me want to redo the kitchem with the same stuff it was SO easy
I've got loads of happyfuntattoo work this week that's delightful I think I'm going to not book Fri so we can go see the new star trek I'm not so sure it looks awful hip and pretty
I want to completely rearrange the building when I got pregnant everything had to be moved to finish the rooms we needed for the boys now we've got messes in every room we don't use every day I've got a plan but it's going to have to be a slow process a few bags and things here and there until it's done I think my plan will also allow me to get rid of tons of stuff I own too much I want all our space to make sense everything to have a home
digging through my summer clothes deciding what will allow me to breastfeed and what will get in the way found my pre-preg undies! yay-men I have quite a few shirts that aren't baggy or long though that might have to go back in storage until I reassess my figure next year this year I need to lose 10lbs but can't diet because I'm breastfeeding and am struggling with that enough I don't need to add worry over enough food to it
it seems my journal has gotten rather boring I apologize this first year will be that way not that everything gets magically easier but it should let up a bit
speaking of which I found a dress I want to make into a skirt and I should be doing that right now! so I'm going to go look for elastic and if I can find some it's skirtmakingtime. |
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| Breastfeeding ugh |
[Apr. 27th, 2009|04:08 pm] |
Things have gone south again my Canadian medicine is waiting at the post office to be picked up tomorrow that will happen and I'll start that all over again but I don't think you're supposed to stay on it the entire time so I'll have 8-10wks of gooed milk again and then I bet it dropps off this is hard I love breastfeeding but have had to start supplementing more than I'd even expect in the past few days probably a growth spurt but my production can't keep up frustrating to keep giving them small bottles and they keep crying for more so more they get but then they go longer between feeding which tells my body to produce less I know what the breastfeeding commty would say so I'm not going to bother I'll do my best and hope for more |
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